(00:02) we have been duped by feminism sexual Liberation and anti-depressants we have been told that we are powerful and free now as women but we feel tired wired and bitter we’re mostly eating right exercising and meditating wrangling to-do lists and arranging playdates and yet there’s a haunting holess beneath the huge complaint what if I told you that there is a huge Storehouse a reservoir of energy inside of you that has not been tapped that you could feel light and pulsing excited and alive in ways that a wellness lifestyle
(00:49) cannot deliver that you could trust yourself that the world could feel safe and that unexpected and expected Delights could start to illuminate your path no coach therapist doctor or Guru required just you learning to get real present and attentive with you I feel like I’m here to matchmake your inner parts for the greatest love affair ever written I want to help you learn first where you’re buying eggs from the hardware store which is the source of all pain I want to help you master entering through the upset which is the
(01:27) only spiritual practice You’ll Ever Need and to get real comfortable putting on your villain Crown which is in my opinion the key to True power and then you’ll attune to your inner yes so you can live the life defined by the specific pleasure of who you are I am so excited to announce my latest book called The reclaimed woman which is available for pre-order now so if you head to the link in show notes you can learn more about bonuses events and companion offerings and I cannot wait to see your gorgeous face on the
(02:07) [Music] path I’m Dr Kelly Brogan you may know me as a New York Times bestselling author of a book with an exploding pill on the cover Renegade psychiatrist P dancer or honorary member of the disinformation doesn’t what can I say I’m a born provocator I’ve spent most of my recent life exposing deceptions connecting dots and discovering the secret places my inner victim is still waiting to be liberated and now I feel called to help you reclaim all of your parts your health your sexuality your power and your expression so that you can finally
(02:46) truly own yourself I want to ignite in you that inner knowing and the pulsing Vitality that lives beneath your disempowerment disconnection and resentment so that you can audaciously courageously and playfully alchemize your struggle into the specific pleasure of who you are this is Reclamation radio a soulfire production hi and welcome back to Reclamation radio I am Dr Kelly Brogan and today I am going to be talking about the reclaimed woman which just so happens to be the title of my new book that is dropping June
(03:30) 25th and if you have any experience in the authorship world you know that the process of gestating a book is no different than that of gestating a human in its Arc and I have been on a journey since own yourself which was published in 2019 of ripening and readying what it is that I want to contribute to the collective on the subject of so-called femininity and what so many of us women are engaged in when it comes to self- Reclamation self- ownership self-relating and self-mastery so I had a lot of trouble getting a book deal
(04:15) this time so I was in a position I guess magically mysteriously to secure a seven figureure book deal for my first book with a mainstream publisher and slowly have gotten cancelled over the years I was was lovingly canceled by my agent and co-writer after that book and you know they basically just said we’re not going to be walking the rest of your journey like you’re too radical and the other authors in our stable are complaining and I got it you know I cried and it made sense to me and with my second book I went agentless to Hay
(04:52) House and have since been canceled on many different fronts I got wrapped up in what I understand to be some sort of political right-wing identification in the pandemic times which of course has I have literally never made have you ever heard me make a political statement publicly I am an apolitical gal and somehow I got wrapped up in Q Anon business and was seemingly set aside so I went shopping to different Publishers and was not able to secure a deal this time because I am handling the hot topic of sex roles and feminism and in that
(05:34) world there is a what I would describe as a dogmatism around what you are allowed to believe when it comes to inclusivity and the irony therein which of course is that I am radically excluded from so many of these inclusive camps so I have landed in a very loving and comfortable home with skyhorse and will be delivering this manuscript to you all very shortly so I wanted to share a little bit about it because as so many of you know I’m learning that more and more of you are just I’m like dropping into your ecosystem and you
(06:13) haven’t necessarily been on the journey with me from you know whatever it was 2014 until now as I walk the yian path of actualization home to myself certainly looks like I am either having again with no small irony many breakdowns or I am on some sort of archetypal path that involves some elements that are Universal when it comes to the remembrance that we as humans are in a position to experience and of course I can only speak as a woman although I have been making a very serious study of man woman Dynamics and
(06:54) learning what I can about what men say about their experience as well so in my process process as I have observed in so many of our processes ruptures and specifically what in Psychology would be called a rupture of empathy have been the defining requisite experience before I expand into a new more inclusive more encompassing identity more permissive identity and these ruptures have taken some there have been so many but they have taken some pretty specific shapes the tears have and when I look back you know many of you may know me for my
(07:37) health Reclamation opinions and perspectives around you know medical informed consent and bodily sovereignty when I look back that began to rumble and the full rupture took about three you know sort of pressure waves in 200920 in my fellowship year so I in my fellowship year specialized as one of the first 300 reproductive psychiatrists which means that I was specialized in prescribing to pregnant and breastfeeding women and I was pregnant with my firstborn that year and so I had my first experience of cognitive
(08:16) dissonance around this industry that I had pledged my loyalty to you know there we could call it a cult in many ways but I was a card carrying believer in allopathy and had put years of Blood Sweat and Tears and sleepless nights and hundreds of thousands of debt into this bond with a very parentified system and it wasn’t until I had a moment when I was writing a prescription for zolof for a pregnant woman in front of me that this dissonance began to surface almost like you know an effervescence to my cognitive awareness and I was in the
(08:58) practice of providing informed consent and letting these women know about the then you know 25,000 cases in the registry data which was passively collected by pharmaceutical companies that suggests that there aren’t signals of you know what’s called teratogenicity or you know the Mal formations that might result from other chemical and toxic exposures so we don’t see those with anti-depressants and therefore the untreated depression or anxiety or OCD or Panic or what whatever it was you know bipolar disorder or so-called
(09:32) schizophrenia that you are dealing with would be far riskier in your pregnancy than the exposure to this chemical so here I am you know giving this woman the learned and studied Spiel and I had this voice rise up inside of me that said I would never take this I don’t care what you say I would never take this as a pregnant woman and that was inconvenient right because why would there be some sort of ethical double standard for my patients and for myself so I ignored that as you do when you’re not ready to expand the reality box that you’ve been
(10:09) you know coed into and then it was around my preparation for birth so I should have had a very medicalized birth as somebody who used to believe in elective C-section and who certainly had enough collaboration with obstetrics given my specialty to believe that they knew what they were doing right instead I fired my OB and I began to work with a midwife because of the data because I was practiced at looking at the data and I concluded that what I you know then saw in the literature was less than 30% of obstetrics is based on tier one
(10:51) evidence that this was not evidence-based that these interventions were just consensus I didn’t want any of them and it’s again not because you know I was I was eating McDonald’s at the time so it’s it’s not because I was you know some kind of hippie Earth Mama or something like that it was literally because I was triggered and frustrated and indignant and righteous around you know Psychiatry being more evidence-based at least how I was practicing it than what my colleagues were up to around that time I also had a
(11:25) patient who had a second trimester stillborn and this was after I then found out she received the double flu shot that season and because I was prescribing to her also I took a very deep dive into the teratogenicity and Adverse Events data surrounding that intervention and found that there was none so I had sort of a fire lit within me through my own research and went on to have a natural birth because of this you know sort of Awakening to to how sometimes what we are told about the evidence is not actually the case of
(12:03) course this was in another specialty not in my own and then it wasn’t until 10 months postpartum that I was diagnosed with an autoimmune condition called Hashimoto thyroiditis and that same voice came up again and said because it will and said I do not want to take a prescription medication like almost like out of laziness like I don’t want to walk this prescription down to CVS every month for the rest of my life no maybe I had commitment issues like that was a big no for me and because I already had these sort of rumbles of mistrust or
(12:39) suspicion around you know the quality of evidence for given interventions that are very routinely accepted by you know female populations I went to a naturopath and in going to a naturopath I and she is very aidite and academic and intelligent it was just the right fit for me and my existing biases around so-called alternative medicine and because of the dietary interventions that we engaged I put my Hashimoto into remission so that was the beginning of the end of my allegiance and collusion with compliance around allopathic
(13:18) medicine you know so-called mommy medicine right I took my sword out of its sheath and you know took out a $2 million life insurance policy and decided I was going to take you know the industry down single-handedly publish a book with an exploding pill on the cover you know that ended up as a New York Times Grassroots New York Times bestseller I still don’t even understand how that happened because there has not been a mention of this book in mainstream media including now there’s like you know some kind of a scandal
(13:47) going on surrounding my co-writer I don’t know the details about a friend of mine said you know your book is still not mentioned it’s like literally he said radioactive too funny so that was the beginning of my expansion into the identity of the activist the world saver and my Rebellion against the parentified authority of medicine I had another rupture with this very identity with the experience of my activism after my mentor Nick Gonzalez died and I was able to experience an initiation of sorts to my own self-generated safety because he
(14:33) was somebody Who provided tremendous amounts of safety to my system I always thought you know if I ever got in any sort of trouble he’d be there for me and he would know the answer he knew all the answers like just if anybody knew him he just knew all the answers I don’t know how else to put it and when he passed I had an experience of taking charge of myself my own inner safety and my process and I decided then that I wanted to choose what felt good and I was no longer interested in you know fighting the monsters and becoming them that I’d
(15:10) gotten into this very dark place of recognizing that the people who were at the Helm of the activist fight against the pharmaceutical industry and its Associated offers were angry were bitter had dysfunctional relationships these are very hurt people myself included and who are we to say that we know how it’s supposed to look we don’t we’re so consumed with the erotic caress of the enemy with this obsession with what the enemy is up to and the role that we play that if we actually were to somehow win the loss of that identity would probably
(15:49) be too great to bear so that there is a perpetuating energy that is not unlike allopathy itself which I always say essentially propagates and sustains that which it purports to resolve think about acid blockers or anti-depressants or antibiotics they literally generate The Chronic conditions that they promise to resolve acutely so the Divergence there for me was that I began to focus on what felt good which was the testimonials and the outcomes and the celebration of what is possible and so I started to publish
(16:28) medical literature and I started to focus on really showcasing the stories of people who had come in their sense of self through these portals of rupture as I had so how can your own self-healing help you to embody your purpose you can Reveal Your powerful nature your essence and attract Community around you with Divine truth elixir you can be fearlessly authentic and transparent commit to yourself and your vision this is the beautiful intersection between self-expression and service and a blend by my friend Katie Hess at Lotus way
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(17:52) com and use the code kelly5 for 15% off the link is in show notes for you and then there was yet another rupture and there were micro ruptures all you know throughout this timeline and this one was after my last marriage ended and it’s not to suggest that the ending of my first marriage I’m probably still processing that not probably when I had the intuitive hit to cut my hair off last year I sat in the chair and as I you know watched this woman cut into about a foot from the tips of my hair I began to grieve and mourn and I didn’t
(18:35) know what was going on it wasn’t about cutting my hair because once I decide that I’m aligned with an Impulse I’m all in it was about the conditions of my first marriage ending and breaking up a family and the pain that really is ceaseless you know I think most of you who have separated from or divorced from the the father of your or mother of your children know what I’m talking about that there is something lost there that now you could argue I am on a mission to help women really work to sustain in a way that I didn’t appreciate and
(19:10) couldn’t appreciate and this was my path and all the things but there is a hindsight that is it’s achy it’s achy so anyway after my second marriage ended and I trusted that I was meant to go somewhere you know that could not be capacitated by that container I began to explore as many of you have probably seen because I chose to do it very publicly began to explore a lot of the ways that I had understood I was allowed to be a woman and I began to Rattle that cage for myself within myself and I began to call women into my lifescape
(19:54) who were womaning differently than me and seemingly with way more permission to experience pleasure and silliness and you know disinhibition and fun and audacity which has become of course my favorite word I’ve done several events by that title at this point and simply in trusting these connections and trusting the inspiration that I felt when I would spend time around these women dancers and singers and artists many of whom could could have easily been my patients right so the archetype of the the woman who found herself
(20:35) caught in the gears of Psychiatry and became one of my patients was almost always somebody who is not conventionally considered to be a major contributor to society right so is not a doctor and it’s not a lawyer not what Nick Gonzalez would call a sympathetic dominant but instead of parasympathetic dominance so The Visionaries and the creatives and the Bohemian types and I found myself exploring a lot of the shame that I didn’t know I had right I was the gal who I remember this experience one time in a Kundalini class
(21:12) the teacher said I know that we all struggle with insecurity raise your hand if you do and I was the only one in the class who didn’t raise my hand because I thought of myself because I have all of these adaptive defenses that fit the demands and expectations of the dominant Orthodoxy I thought of myself as confident meanwhile I was really just an example of what so many women are which is somebody who was heavily curating and Performing and managing successfully but nonetheless I was left with a feeling that now I see is coming up for
(21:53) transformation for so many of us and that I aim to address with this book with this offering of living behind a glass wall I was left with this experience of even the most celebratory moments of my life somehow feeling Hollow and in the health and wellness world you know I recognize that you could eat all the right things biohack until you’ve got 30 Wellness gadgets strapped to you and fistfuls of supplements you’re ice bathing you’re eye gazing you’re drinking your urine but if your life force is locked in the
(22:31) Vault of your specifically sexual shame because your Sexual Energy your Eros is your connection to the animating dimension of your humanity and it requires visiting with your rejected Parts if this is locked up you will never actually feel well and your impostor syndrome will grow and grow and grow and start to hurt and hurt and hurt more such that the invitation will be laid bare before you to begin to come home to yourself and to engage that Soul retrieval that is archetypal it’s designed this way right so we as women
(23:18) have been so disconnected from ourselves that we actually need help womaning we were raised and praised for doing for achieving for planning for organizing for executing and we began to identify with our Persona in such a way that we disconnected from our Essence and now we’re at this place where perhaps for the first time in human history we have turned against our Instinct as mothers and our intuition and spiritual connection as women and we need help reorienting that’s how we can look to each other because I know
(24:05) that we can remember together it just is a feeling when you have come into this kind of alignment even just for moments at a time you have that feeling of oh yeah this is what I came here for the mother wound as I would call it that all of us I don’t know most of us suffer with and from leads us to programs and patterns of control of perfectionism and our performer and our manager is never resting never ceasing at work in the bedroom we don’t ever exhale and we are wired and tired we’re flailing and we are choosing men who say
(24:53) whatever you want honey instead of here’s what’s Best in an attune and secure way we compete with men and we compete with women and that means that nowhere in the world is safe so sometimes we even get the things that we want and it feels like nothing so we don’t know if we can trust our desire we don’t feel in alignment with the expression of God through this vessel which is our feminine desire our feminine heart and we end up living in narrow bands of emotions and we get into Loops of bitterness resentment
(25:39) disappointment and our bodies take those shapes you now when I look back at videos you know even from five years ago there is so much stiffness in my body and as somebody who has loved to dance since I was little and spent many years as a ballerina in my formative years the metric for my Evolution at this point is how languid how soft how Supple how slow can I move my body and it is way more challenging than one would imagine I can look at a woman and I can see where her shame is stored in her body I can see
(26:19) where that tightness where that pain lives we can perceive this I was I tell this story I was in a store the other day and I was waiting right it was some computer store and I was waiting and apparently I had my like resting face on and which is something that has vastly improved thanks to my facial lymphatic massage self-care however apparently had a lapsed moment and this older gentleman gave me a note as he was leaving and the note said smile you are beautiful God bless you and I recognized in that moment that my
(27:03) energetic constriction was probably on some level painful to him and that’s why he asked me to smile because when a woman’s body is not animated by this heart energy and it doesn’t mean that we’re supposed to be like some happy puppets that’s not the point the point is when we disconnect it’s felt and there’s some sort of a little T that happens in the fabric of the collective and that’s why I am so passionate about this Reclamation about this reconnection about this remembrance as being the most powerful form of world
(27:41) changing you want to be an activist you want there to be more you know Justice in the world you want things to make sense you want to create an environment for your children this is in my opinion and having studied many paths and walked many paths this is the way it requires the inner work of collecting our parts resolving and transforming the shame and claiming the gifts that are awaiting us behind these constrictions we often take the bait of believing that something is wrong with us in fact this is conditioned in our
(28:22) childhood because it’s the only way you can maintain any locus of control when you are experiencing abuse or injury or violation you say Well it must be me because for you to say well it’s my bad daddy or my bad mommy at that point that’s an adolescent stage later when you say it at that point I mean you’re living in a hellscape right so if you insist that your mommy is good and your daddy is good and it’s just something that you can change about yourself and you can strive to do so and do that tap dance of am I good now am I good now am
(28:56) I good now then you carry that because we are not initiated into your adulthood and you believe that something is actually deeply damaged and wrong with you right so I sometimes joke that one of my core beliefs is that I’m crazy I actually think most women have adopted this core belief and that’s why I invested a lot in sitting on the right side of the psychiatrist’s desk so that nobody would notice right and that’s also why a lot of my initiation over the past couple of years involved so many people imagining that I really had lost
(29:34) it really had taken it too far now you’ve taken it too far Kelly okay so I know how many women carry this deep belief that something is wrong with them because I medicated these women for a living and I reify that belief and I said you know you just take this pill bottle has your name on it and every day they would be reminded oh yeah something is wrong with me but I’m doing exactly what I need to to you know comply and be obedient so this has been a full circle process for me to recognize that there is indeed at least from my perspective
(30:14) an order of operations from the Reclamation of health and your relationship to your body which I think of through my program vital mind reset as being a masculine initiation I actually believe there is a specific order of operations within each stage and I’ve seen what it looks like firsthand and through the observation of thousands of women walking this path first you reclaim your health and then there is the opportunity to reclaim your femininity and your earos your life force from behind these shame walls so
(30:55) in this book I have every intention to give you the proper brainwashing I joke that is required for you to defrag a lot of secret places where your beliefs and the dominant narrative has kept you arrested in a very small box that says this is the kind of woman you can be and that you’re allowed to be while your soul is kicking and screaming in that space and after the brainwashing I will give you my distilled and curated tips for how to practice and stabilize your no which I believe comes first and then how to
(31:43) align with and honor your yes and some of the other things that we will explore and unearth together include I’m just going to give you a little rally list here why victim consciousness is the only human disease I’ve said this many times I say it’s the only human pathology and how to stop feeling like your life is one big complaint how feminism was the greatest bait and switch of all time why you feel like you’re living behind a glass wall why imagining that there is a proper right and good way to be a woman is a trap how to walk through
(32:26) your life initiations with curiosity and confidence and use them to claim your creatrix gifts why coming into your feminine quote unquote doesn’t work and why all the love light and rose petals in the world will never leave you feeling like a wild woman goddess in my opinion what it takes to finally end the war with men and self- husband like a woman with exquisite boundaries why hating on other people is a deep spiritual practice why we do in fact get off on our pain why Shadow hunting can become your favorite sport radical
(33:09) permission and why it matters to your sense of self ways to feel contained and offer a nervous system safety so you always feel like you’ve got you why getting what we want can feel anticlimactic the art of audacious embodiment and how to make art and express from your greatest gifts as a woman and how to get to the place where you have nothing unsaid and unexpressed in your lifescape so because I am a provocator and I have an enduring mischievous side that I now Embrace I want this to be the Grassroots movement that the Pharma
(33:51) Reclamation I contributed to in 2016 was I want to see your faces those of you who are on this path to feminine Reclamation and know that it requires a firm and stable Foundation of Health Reclamation medical freedom and bodily sovereignty because I have found myself because I like it the black sheep of the health Reclamation world and wellness activism space I am the only one I know really speaking to the erotic the sexual and what this archetype switching of the feminine journey and process can possibly look like and then
(34:38) in the feminine embodiment world I am one of the only ones who is interested in you know looking behind the veil of the dominant narrative and exploring the story behind the story who you know questions and engages in deep inquiry around so-called truth and I know that I am not the only one I know that there are so many of you women because I have met you and I know that you Vibe what it is to bring these worlds into a beautiful vend diagram of personal expression and I want to see your faces I want you to stand with me and I want
(35:18) to create a pattern disrupt for the collective that I know this book can spearhead I hope that it serves you I hope that it makes you laugh and smile and maybe cry and also feel this moment of opportunity that we are all stepping into together I’ll see you soon
